Another year gone. Another year older. Wasn’t that what people usually said when the years changed? Obviously Alexandra Kelly wasn’t people. Not only did she miss midnight, but also she couldn’t care less about time passing. Every time had it’s highlights. Hers probably had been the wedding to the love of her life.
A term used to lightly these days.
But for her that was the truth. Nick Sanderson was the last missing puzzle piece to complete what made her. It could be said that his feelings wore her down. After years of back and forth and both having different partners. When he asked that most important question -- she was hesitant. Not because she didn’t love him. Not because he wasn’t the man of her dreams. It was bad memories of being in that situation once before.
But that wasn’t him.
Of course not. But being left in front of the altar once before did quite the amount of damage to a young girl. Correction, to an already damaged girl. Eventually he asked often enough that she gave in. Which became one of the best decisions of her life. Having that anchor she was missing all her life. The one that understood her passion for the business just as much as her dislike of people. Despite the outside appearance of a cute girl -- she wasn’t really social. If it wasn’t for work the Pixie mostly remained in her castle.
She wouldn’t become part of the Premiere circle. Just like she never became part of any other roster. Hanging out or sharing experiences. They wouldn’t become her friends. They were co- workers if anything. Some better than others.
What about that one girl?!
Eavan Maloney. Someone she had hope for which now destroyed her own career but on top her own reputation. There were three things Alexandra didn’t go well with.
Stupidity. Disrespect. Flaking out.
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She had been like a tornado these past days. Running through everything like there was no tomorrow. To say her mood was lousy was not even coming close. And while Nick was clever enough to get out of the way -- she still found him here and there. Jumping on him for all the wrong reasons. But he didn’t go as far as feeling attacked, he knew her way too well. What angered her had nothing to do with him or Charlie.
For the first time today she sat down on their big couch, stretching out. A steaming cup of coffee placed in front of her. The smell istels had the tendency to calm her down, but not today. Instead she chewed on her bottom lip, looking as the world was going down.
“Penny for your thoughts?” Charlie smiled warm, trying to keep the mood calm and tranquil. Knowing her friends body language and tone as she did. Charlie cuddled up to herself in a sweater with a cup of tea in her hands, her eyes looking Pixie up and down.
“I am not sure I can phrase it without getting offensive.” Pixie looked down for a moment. “But can you believe that stupid bitch wrestling pregnant? I mean really? Having this little wonder grow inside of you and risk it? For what? Not pulling out a contract or trying to prove that you are worth something? That's shit. So much shit.”
Alex kicked the blanket a few times as if she couldn’t get comfortable.
Charlie gave a small nod and bit her bottom lip with a sigh. “You know, some people don’t value those little lives growing inside them.” She sighed again, this time with a heavier tone tilting her head causing some of her brunette hair to flow down. “You’ve seen how Sonja was while pregnant, so protective. Some people are so selfish and I understand how you feel. But getting worked up and upset, snapping at Nicky...won’t help honey”
Charlie smiled again and gave Pixie a small wink.
“You know what the biggest problem is, Charlie? That to a degree wish it was his fault. That he is the one that can’t… have children. But it’s me. I was never the one that badly wanted kids, but someone telling you that you can’t -- changes everything. I wasn’t raised very well or healthy.” She made a small pause, looking at her friend. “I thought every family was like this. I thought love was nothing more than a pure illusion. And then I met.. Nicky.”
Charlie looked down and thought long and deep, realising the pause between was becoming awkward. She slowly turned her gaze back to Pixie, her best friend seemed vulnerable. Something Charlie had seen before but was still foreign and seemed wrong. Someone so strong looking emotional. “It’s not actually your fault Alexandra. It’s something you want and the possibility of not having it, then watching someone almost risk and squander that gift….I can understand why it got under your skin…”
“What really eeks me is this… she KNEW she was pregnant. Not like it was a surprise now, she knew it. And went in there with the excuse of: Hey I padded up. That is all kind of fucked up and would anger me even if the subject wasn’t so touchy.”
Alexandra sat up properly to look at her friend. For the first time in days there was a certain fire that wasn’t only motivated by anger and frustration. She fixed her already messy hair into a tail -- reaching out for her mug.
“You know what else miffs me? That this match would have been for the chance to go further in this tournament. To become the first Diamond Champion. Do you know how many females would love to get a chance like that? And all Eavan did was steal that spot from someone. And here goes my hope that people in this business have some common sense.”
Charlie couldn’t help but let out a small giggle. “Common sense in wrestling. That’s cute. Didn’t you just beat someone who talks like a cat pirate?. People are selfish honey. You’re a...excuse the pun..Diamond in the rough. You care about things like common sense and people earning chances…” She smiled again and got up sliding right next to Pixie. “You can’t hold people to your standards dear.”
This time Pixie couldn’t help herself but laugh. “Is this prep talk, Charlie? Because honey I actually don’t expect shit from people. I have been in enough companies to see all kind of shit. But I had watched the girl. She had some talent.” A sip from her now cold coffee. “And if I am a hundred percent honest -- I am pissed on a personal level too. I prepared for a match. Now I get to… that's the thing… I got no clue.”
“Now you’re sitting here drinking coffee with your bestie while your husband quivers like a scared puppy in the corner?” She raised her eyebrows and tilted her head sideways with a goofy grin.
“Very funny, Charlene. He has been through worse with me. But hey, I have to be at the show and sit somewhere. Watch the others compete. I might just invade Kaden’s office and drink all his booze.” She giggled. “How does that sound?”
“Lets hope his taste in booze is better than his taste in women.” Charlie muttered under her breath but loud enough for Pixie to hear. “But I would like to come along and watch the show. I miss it and I like watching. And besides, I like spending time with you.” Charlie grabbed Pixies hand and squeezed lightly.
“Like I would go without you, nut. Especially since I put you in as manager when I signed with Premiere. Which I probably should have mentioned before.”
She laughed out loud when letting herself fall back against the sofa. Ready to get attacked. Sure enough Charlie growled and dove sideways tickling Pixie with a grin. The two girls going back and forth and for the first time in days the atmosphere seemed to calm down.
Nicky, you may come out.
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There were those people that had the emotional span that would fit on a teaspoon. And then there were those that probably felt everything a thousand times stronger. Alexandra Kelly was part of the second group. She was by no means over sensitive or lovey dovey. But if a feeling hit her -- man did it hit hard.
She had built a small women cave inside her office with everything she needed in reach. Snacks. Drinks. And tons of music. When pressing record on her smartphone she kept quiet -- fully aware that was live already.
“What am I supposed to say? That I am disappointed? Both, on a professional and personal level. Eavan Maloney, you managed to upset me like not many before you. I can deal with people being shitheads or not good at what they are doing. I can live with having matches against arrogant idiots that can’t tie their own laces. But what you did was a mixture of everything. It was disrespectful towards me. The audience and the company. I call you a failure in public because it is a fact. It does not get to my head what you tried to prove. Or what was your plan in the first time. Was it about the paycheck? Because if money had been the matter -- Kaden would have helped you without blinking.”
“So I must assume your actions only happened because you are dumb and don’t care about anyone but yourself. Yeah, you might sensed that right -- I am pissed off like an Irish on St. Paddys Day. Have you thought for one second what would have been if that match had happened? If I had gone against you with every bit that I am. Ask Teo how that feels. He is the champion of the company and still I made him tap like a little girl. But this is not even about you losing a match. What if something had happened to your baby? And it would have been my fault. Are you really that much of a selfish, little girl? I couldn’t care less what happened to you -- now or ever. But that little nudger is a different story. I had hope for this division. Damn, I had hope for this business. Despite my natural instinct I reached out to you. Gave you the benefit of the doubt.”
She laughed out loud and somewhat bitter. Her dark eyes staring directly into the camera.
“They say fear is for the brave, because cowards never stare it in the eye. Does that sound anything like you, Eavan? You were so scared of what would happen with you that you rather risked an unborn life. Maybe I take that harder than someone else would -- but to me you are a sad excuse of a human being. But enough about that and enough about you. You are yesterday's news girl, now we return to what really matters. The Diamond Title Tournament. I will go after something I have heard a long time ago: I didn’t come so far, to only come so far. This title is mine. No matter who goes out victorious tonight -- they will be stopped when facing off against me. And that is by no means a threat, it is dishing out facts. I have created my own path here in Premiere. No matter who, what or when -- I shown my worth. That can’t be said for every competitor here.”
“So let me close with words of warning. Take me lightly and you will be the next Teo. Think of me as your friend and you will be disappointed. This, Premiere Wrestling, is business. And that is something you will have to understand, once and for all. I am not here to guide anyone through tough situations. I am not the supernanny. If you can’t keep your shit together, or your legs closed, tough luck. In this industry you don’t get too many chances -- so operating clever is an absolute must. I might be impulsive but I am hardly caught making dumb decision. I am sorry to the audience that they miss out to see me in action -- but I will for sure be seen. And if not -- then heard. Because what would a show be without yours truly.”