Post by Caliee Adams on Feb 19, 2018 22:30:32 GMT -5
Prologue- I don't even know where to start...I got jumped by Bianca and Cora . I wasn't booked in a match due to going through a table in my last match against my boyfriend . I was hurting from the fall. My ribs were killing me. Only reason I was at premier was to watch Xander fight Ethan. Which ended up with Kade being the special ref. Xander lost because he left the match to come check on me . Bianca and Cora thought they could end my career by taking out my arm. One minor set back not career ending. This week I'm facing Alexis Martin she's had 3 matches so far. But don't worry I haven't forgotten about Bianca or Cora they will get what's coming to them…
To be or not to be?
I felt like I was a the biggest thrill ride of my life right now. Somethings that are happening in my life is your typical normal life right? I mean it's not everyday you get to fight your boyfriend in a match. Or get jumped by 2 crazy bitches all because I slapped the shit out of one of them. Things happen for a reason I guess. I decided to take a little me time and go home to see my family. I was close to my mom she was amazing. She was always there for me though everything I've done in my life. The 2nd night I was at my mom's she had told me that she spoke to Kade. He was someone special to me someone I like to keep close to me. She had took me out to dinner and dropped a huge Bomb on me. That the man who trained me the man who I told a while ago that I loved, actually did love me. He loves me. Like it's been something I've wanted for so long to happen. But now I'm with Xander I love X. He's wonderful makes me smile and laugh. We have fun together. I won't sit here and lie and say me and X haven't been the same since our match.
I don't know what's going to happen with me and Xander. I don't know what's going to happen with Kade. Really I don't know what the fuck I want. I want to be alone I want to be able to hear myself think. I wanna be able to do whatever the fuck I want without even thinking about it. I sucked in a deep breath. I had my hand resting on a tall stone. I was at the cemetery were my baby was resting. I haven't been back here in a while it always made me depressed. I felt a tear fall from my eyes. Talking to my daughter always made me feel better. Having someone listen to me and not give me shit back was nice for once. The ground was dry I had put roses, Lilies and a giraffe statue around her head stone. I was dressed in a pair of black leather skinny jeans a white tank covered with a black and grey flannel. I had my pink converse on. Really dark sunglasses were covering my eyes
I had turned my Facebook live on as I sat down beside any daughters grave. I had a match against Alexis Martin Tuesday. She's semi new to this. Also I didn't point the camera at my daughter's grave at all. Only thing people could see are the trees and a flowers all around. I was in Miami visit my mother. I had to stop to see my baby. My Facebook live was on I was pointing it toward myself. “Hi Facebook world. It's me Calieena! Things been crazy in my world. But I won't let that stop me from getting back up. I know the whole world has been following my every move. I can't do anything without someone talking. My relationship is one of thoses things. I'm sick and tired of hearing about Xander putting me through a table. That doesn't make him a damn women abuser this is our job. This is what we do. So what we are dating that wasn't going to stop him or even me from holding back. This whole thing with X and kade I honestly I'm sick of it. I'm not a prize that someone can claim. They can have there match but I won't be involved. At the end of the day I will keep doing me. I may get shit for this but i liked myself better when i was alone. I liked myself better when i didn't have to love someone. Or please someone. Ahhh...BIANCA! I'm shocked to be honest I didn't think you had it in you. I painted you as this girl that just wanted her tv time for her stupid little show. Hell I even thought that you'd sleep your way to the top. But I'm wrong…
You grew a pair of balls and did something. Well you didn't do it yourself. CORA Reeves I don't even know who the hell you are?? How much did she pribe you with to help her? Because I hope it was worth it because I'm coming for you and Bianca. I'll take the both of you in that ring. You thought by giving me a little injury would make me sit on the side lines for a few. Well not me maybe someone else but I'll wrestle injured I don't care. My arm isn't broken it isn't out of commission. It's a strain my doctor has cleared me. Oh yeah no more stitches either so I maybe only 80% but that won't stop me from kicking your face in. BIANCA you can keep bringing up my past my present hell even my future. I don't care. I'm not done making my name known.
This week Alexis Martin gets the chance to show me what she can do. I'm not sure how many matches she's had in premier. I won't even say she can't beat me that would be me being what's the word I'm looking for?? A self centered bitch. I won't pretend I know a damn thing about you either. Your pretty you've won 2 matches. Maybe need a little ring work but I won't put you down. You lost to pixie she let ya down easy. I won't be going easy on you. I'll show you exactly what we need here in premier. “
I was still Facebook live. I kept looking at my daughter's grave. I've learned to be strong. I had days were I didn't want to come outside. I just wanted to lay in bed and die. I get stronger everyday. I wiped my eyes as tears started filling them. I reached over to grab my pink backpack that I brought with me. It had a mini flask in it. I took a drink of it before tossing it back in my bag.
“I've always thought I had to be this girl that everyone liked. That i had to pretend to be this happy go lucky girl. But at the end of the day I am me. I'm not here to please anyone. I'm here to be the wrestler I am today. I'm here to put on a show. At the circus they need a ring leader right? At premier they have well had Kaden. Now some man that probably has a stash of freaking ho-hos inside his desk drawer. I don't freaking know and I'm starting not to care. BIANCA and CORA I'm coming for you. Until now I'll see you in the ring Alexis.”
I really couldn't explain my mood right now. I was tired I was sick of everything. I tossed my phone back into my bag. I sat down by my daughter grave and I just relaxed for once.
Post by Alexis Martin on Feb 19, 2018 23:42:54 GMT -5
Hey Everyone, I thought bout this for a little bit so I'm sorry for the late responses to everyone on social media. I thought about shooting some form of video with the great camera crew from Premier but I thought writing something out to you guys would be that much better. So, If you haven't heard. I've got a match against Caliee Adams. Some of you around the world claim that she may win, that she is close to the boss in more ways than one and no I'm not agreeing with that statement. I am just referring to what has been said. But that doesn't matter because that is your personal life Caliee. I'm not here to nit pick and talk about who the correct man is that you love. I'm here to kick butt and that's exactly what I'm going to do.
You see, since arriving here I've faced a lot of great talent. I've won some and I've lost some. In the end I believe that I've become better. Could I defeat Caliee? It's very possible that I will but it's also very possible that I may not. But I do promise you that I will give it my all and make you all proud of me. I love you all!!